I took one look into your eyes
dreamt of paradise
when thoughts of you invade my mind

I took one look into your eyes
you got me good
so hypnotized

Let me show you
how to treat you right
I swear you won’t want to go back

Reality is awaiting
but an open door does not have to close
I’ll let you come back
any time you want
Escape with me to the forgotten land
I’ll rough you up just like you want

I’ll want you good
I’ll want you bad
But I promise to treat you more than right
You’ll have everything a girl could want

Want me good
Want me bad
I’ll be to you, all in one

Let me show you
what you’ve been missing your whole life
I swear you won’t want to go back

Reality is awaiting
but an open door does not have to close
Come back for me baby
I’ll be waiting on the other side.

In Reply to Dead End

Had I regret of all I’ve done
I’d be living down the lonely road
Had I been sorry for all forgot
I’d still be apologizing
Perhaps undone

Down two roads
You only choose one
Not by force
But by decision owned

Down two roads,
maybe three or four
You only get chance by luck
Perhaps not

Only one thing’s certain
of what you’ve become
thats the trail you’ve led
Till this very day
Deviation, none

Forgive me if I’ve offended
Be it Jews or Germans
Buddhists, Muslims or Christians
But a sin is a sin
To which written
I have not determined

Be it where unwritten
your mind has carried
As dark a place
As imagination buries

As a poet
I’ve meant no judiciaries
To anything lethal,
grave or even detrimental

As certain as your fate
is the consequence of an act
good or bad
come what may

But all is not atrocious
This world still has a conscience,
I believe,
At least I do
And to that I swear my life to

If you choose to remember
or choose to forget
every or a single action
you have made
I salute you

But from the smallest action
with the strangest stranger
I bet you’ve sinned
and let it sleep

As by default
a fault’s a fault
for no one is so virtuous
that’s the human condition

Oh! How sorry must I feel?
I have no regrets to live on
For every experience,
even this “sin” in sinning
has made me who I am
and I need not forgiveness

fla
March 7 2011

Fla: feb 28 2011

My faith is breaking.
Values are falling.
My hands are shaking

I cannot stand
for I have fallen
a time too many.

My arms are empty
and You still haven’t
reached out to help me

God, where are you?
I am waiting

Its been so long since i have actually made myself feel pretty. I’ve forgotten how it is done! I used to do it almost every day when i was back in medschool, a period in my life which ended a year and a half ago. Since then, it’s pretty much been a careless version of me. So since I have this wedding, I decided i’d treat myself some and look pretty for my boy. The wedding is tomorrow and I made a hair salon appointment for tomorrow morning.. -New look awaits. -Just finished the pedicure. -Dress and accessorries ready – i think -..
-Mani? I’m thinking of going for fake Walgreens nail tips ? What do you think? I hate them, but taking into consideration I have to be in the church by 3pm and my hair appointment is at 9am. Time is pretty crammed. (although i am thinking of skipping the ceremony and going straight to the reception… just dont tell anyone, lol. My bf is going to be a groomsmen, so i think i have the perfect excuse. I am wondering if that is distasteful, so I can take your opinions for future events of such… hehe)
What else? Make up, well I’ll let ya know how it turns out. Hopefully the magic is still in these little hands and I still got the eyes for color.. I did try out tho, went to Home Depot and bought wall paint, the colors looked great, my color coordination is intact… I’m in the process of painting my room, toning it down. Still have to wait for the end result!

Also, I’d like to mention I even got a new cellphone. So even if they are just small details, 2010 has turned out pretty good. I must say. Been feeling so much more positive than I have in a veryyy long time. So hopefully this new vibe will be all for the best! As I had written in my previous posts, 2009 sucked.. So maybe my luck has finally changed and to that I hope to God, I hope to God..

So whats the key ingredient??? I ponder. Oh yeah the making myself feel it! Haha, thats the most important part of course… I’ve tested it and it even shows through the camera… Believe me! So if you wanna look pretty, you first have to feel it and believe it! Believe me you can fool even the cheapest or the most detail enhancing, expensive camera with the touch of something called “the confidence boost”!!! I’m not a perfect 10 but hey we can all aim high and go for the WOW, YOU LOOK GREAT. So what are we waiting for? LETS DO IT! Give it a try and thank me later xD

Ok… Totally Vented. Thanks for reading my nonsense xD

A few years go by, marriage, a daughter, new religion and the years came down on the cute Dawson's Creek actress.

To see a recent Katie Holmes pic, check this article out!

http://gawker.com/5549137/we-just-flew-in-from-space-and-boy-is-our-hair-tired

Recent movies such as 2012, Book of Eli (i actually went to a movie theater and paid for this one) and the one I just finished seeing, (which actually inspired me to write this) The Road. All very well acted of course with very well known lead actors (John Cusack, Denzel Washington and Viggo Mortensen -respectively). More or less the same drama, either the End of the World taking place and what happens after the chaos. How does the current human being stand a chance at the end of our present living conditions? A disaster, chaos. How will I deal with it once it comes about? If I let these movies be the answer to my worries I’d end up committing suicide. Is the movie industry subconciously preparing us for such an event? Or is it just a big load of crap, scare tactics not unlike the media and government  use on masses to make their goal of revving sales and stocks up (take the h1n1 swine flu for example all based on sales of a useless drug and eventually a useless vaccine with insufficient clinical trials). If you ask me, the latter. I’m one of those of see to believe but then again i love conspiracy theories, as you can see. BUT STILL I reaaally think we need a break from the negative future flicks.

While I expected greatness out of each, given their stellar cast as with The Road and Book of Eli; and all the media frenzy, specially with 2012. I give each a flat 6 out of 10 in rating. Overall watchable with a bit of desperateness to reach the damn movie’s end. Throw in some endless walking and very irritating running and there you go, you end up doing the same thing in all the movies – you either survived with the fittest or *ducked up and died. IMO you can totally wait for them to come out in HBO and watch them in HD in the comfort of your own home and beautiful tv screen. OH! And if you are planning to make a movie about the future and plan on throwing it in the BOX OFFICE, can you at least make one so I can look forward to reaching 80? What ever happened to Back to Future type flicks? I mean, as much as Avatar was a blockbuster hit I’d really detest my skin turning blue or my offspring’s as a matter of fact. Let’s bring hope back to actually live, you movie gurus!

I won’t give u more than I have already given

If you ain’t ready to give me something I can hold on to

I want something more (yes I want more from you)

Cause what we have isn’t what I’m hoping for

I promise you that

It can be more ..oh so much more baby

I’ll get you the world

and we’ll go anywhere from there on

But that if you’d like

then you’ll have to show me how to pave thru that

cause im in it for a long run but I have to know

that you’re in this with me.. so..

are u in it or what?

cause I don’t like to run alone

nor I want to grow old without you in my arms

So yes you have to take me on the ride of my life

Im ready to give you more

So much more, im exploding with love babe

And I don’t know what else to do,

except to give u that which I am longing

But

I won’t give u more than I have already given

If you ain’t ready to give me something I can hold on to

I want something more (yes I want more from you)

And what we have isn’t what I’m hoping for

I promise you that

It can be more ..oh so much more baby

I’ll get you the world and we’ll go anywhere from that

But that if you’d like

and you’ll have to show me how to pave thru that

cause im in it for a long run but I have to know

that you’re in this with me.. are u in it or what?

Cause I can’t find a way to escape this

This feeling that’s eating me up

And wanting u each day more and more

Wishing & hoping that things can only take off

from this that we have

With love I promise you, we can go to the universe and back

To a better road, a road that I’ll call home

In your arms and mine

I know we’ll fly.

We’ll make love till the morning comes

And neither will have to face the fear

Of waking up in some strangers arms

Cause they’ll be mine and they’ll be yours

Forever until time may come

I promise you that

I don’t want to keep meeting half way

I promise I’ll always want to stay